my frnds

i have many frnds but i couldn't find d one who touches my heart.also they r not fair weather frnds,i m unable feel their frndship.y me?idk.i m alone thats it.what actually takes place here is i m avoiding d ones who approach me i m approaching the ones who avoid me.not intentionally but things r like soo.i think they r virtual,they look like to appear but actually they r not.they play games,go to movies together,they walk together,chit chat each other,but no perfect frndship i think.they look like they r together only due to their individual needs,necessities with others.they looklike they r doing all those mechanically but not from heart.once upon a time i had a frnd,a true frnd to me,he touched my heart,i felt the joy of frndship,but he cheated me,i m not a true frnd to him.again we never had a chance to met,avoided each other.then after i never find a true frnd.i never felt d joy then afrter.Now i m alone.i cant bare this lonely ness.